I am standing in the bathroom, looking at myself in the mirror while shaving and the thought hit me one little nick and my kids could get infected. I dropped the razor and didn't shave for over a month after that. I took a shower and got ready for the day even though I was hating life at that point.
The phone rang, it was my parents returning my call, the thought of telling them killed me. I asked them to help me contact my brothers and invite everyone over to the house the following weekend, Mom knew something was wrong but hesitated to ask me any questions, and I'm happy she did for I don't know if I could've told her right then over the phone any way.
I opened the door to go outside and found an eviction notice attached to the door. I knewI was a little behind with not working and everything, but my kid's mother and her girlfriend were helping so the kids would have a place to live.
Long story short, after going to court and fighting, the kids mom and her girlfriend came up with a large sum of money to at least give me and the kids an extra month before we would have to move.
Back to the subject. I went to my first doctors visit today, they gave me a referal to one of the best HIV doctors in the city. I couldn't believe it, I had tried to get that doctor and they didn't have the room for me in there office at that time. I found out later that my general doctor was friends with the specialist and got me in any way.
My second thing of the day was a trip over to TULSA CARES a local support group for people with HIV/AIDS. I love them all to death .They didn't treat me like an outcast, they treated me normal as if I didn't even have HIV/Aids or was a leper.
The first person I had met there was a councelor, he was great, being positive himself he truly made me feel he understood me, my thoughts, and my fears. We talked a little over an hour and he had shared a lot of information with me and helped calm me down. A case worker was the person who was just as understanding and also made me feel calm and not a leper. Finally I met with another worker who was going to be helping find a place for me and my kids to live, she is still helping, but with my having to move around a lot this past year it has been hard for her, and my hat off to her for that.
I now am building a support team I can truly rely on and feeling better as the day passes. spent the rest of the day with my kids and writing down who I was going to tell and how I was going to tell them.
The phone rang, it was my parents returning my call, the thought of telling them killed me. I asked them to help me contact my brothers and invite everyone over to the house the following weekend, Mom knew something was wrong but hesitated to ask me any questions, and I'm happy she did for I don't know if I could've told her right then over the phone any way.
I opened the door to go outside and found an eviction notice attached to the door. I knewI was a little behind with not working and everything, but my kid's mother and her girlfriend were helping so the kids would have a place to live.
Long story short, after going to court and fighting, the kids mom and her girlfriend came up with a large sum of money to at least give me and the kids an extra month before we would have to move.
Back to the subject. I went to my first doctors visit today, they gave me a referal to one of the best HIV doctors in the city. I couldn't believe it, I had tried to get that doctor and they didn't have the room for me in there office at that time. I found out later that my general doctor was friends with the specialist and got me in any way.
My second thing of the day was a trip over to TULSA CARES a local support group for people with HIV/AIDS. I love them all to death .They didn't treat me like an outcast, they treated me normal as if I didn't even have HIV/Aids or was a leper.
The first person I had met there was a councelor, he was great, being positive himself he truly made me feel he understood me, my thoughts, and my fears. We talked a little over an hour and he had shared a lot of information with me and helped calm me down. A case worker was the person who was just as understanding and also made me feel calm and not a leper. Finally I met with another worker who was going to be helping find a place for me and my kids to live, she is still helping, but with my having to move around a lot this past year it has been hard for her, and my hat off to her for that.
I now am building a support team I can truly rely on and feeling better as the day passes. spent the rest of the day with my kids and writing down who I was going to tell and how I was going to tell them.